I've been up for the past few hours talking to Kayla on the phone, trying to feel a little better. But I can't. I hate myself. I hate myself for hurting Becca now. I hate myself for hurting Becca while we were still dating. All I want is for her to be happy, and it makes me hate myself so fucking much that I'm the reason she's not.
I just want to die and make this all go away. I hate myself so fucking much and I feel so fucking worthless. I can't stand myself anymore.
I don't know what I'm gonna do. I want to make this go away.
It's almost 2am. I need to sleep. I don't know how much longer I can deal with all of this.
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