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My entire family (excluding Matt and Eddy) has been trying to cheer me up since Monday night. I feel bad, because everything they try is just kind of... not working.

Facebook definitely likes shoving that Becca's single now in my face.

I hope we have enough money to go out with my friends this weekend. I need something to make me smile again.

It bothers me that Becca broke up with me over the distance, because I could get my license in... 16 days now (It's not like that's the reason it bothers me, but that's one of them). It was about to get easier, but I guess that's life.

The Today Show is on in our living room, and they keep showing people how to make some sort of food, and I really do not understand how anyone eats some of the stuff they make.

I was looking through all of the stuff Becca ever gave me, and it's... pretty depressing. I used to make her really happy, and those letters used to make me feel really great. I guess I should just stay out of the drawer that stuff is in. But, I'm not getting rid of any of it. She worked really hard on that stuff.

I love the ghetto couples on Maury. There's always the one chick who thinks the guy is cheating, and every time they're all "The lie detector has determined... THAT IS A LIE!" the ghetto guy is all "AWWWW HELL NAW I AIN'T DO DAT!" ...andlol. There's a Psychiatrist talking to him now, and he's all "NOW, INSTEAD OF HOLDING YOUR PRIVATE PARTS AND CURSING PEOPLE, YOU SHOULD TAKE RESPONSIBILITY!" I feel like that should make me laugh.

I... really wish Becca didn't do anything with me on Saturday. It wouldn't have made this so bad. I keep thinking about holding her hand, and holding her on her couch, and how happy it made me, and it's... pretty depressing. I know she had to see me to know if she wanted to break up with me or not, but it makes me feel used.

I know Becca probably thinks I'm really pathetic for all of this, and I know she doesn't feel like it's a big deal. At all.

And, Robert, thanks for trying to cheer me up. =/ You're really the only friend I have that is.